Once mroe i have made the desicion to return, and once more i have made the desicion to restrain my self in my blogging, taking the deep and meaningfull truths of my soal and trapping them in the eternal binding sof ink and paper. (lol, sorry becoming a bit "sober" minded tonight, what i realy mean is that iv just been watching A knights tale on my comp, and using my icl blue workbook to wright my more "unrestreind" blog. Oh yeh and a little news - i found out that my "unseen" blog was attuchly discoverd, sigh. Thankfully though i dont think the reader quite realised whome such wrightings wher about, so all is gooooood :D )

Well, i sence that a numnber of you may be expressing an intrest in what it is that i have now condemed to righting, and chosen not to publish. well tough - its geting late, iv been working flat out most of the past few weeks so i need to get me sen a rest, i aint typing up everything i wright down, because i feel that although i need to reliase such feelings, this is not the place nore the time to do so - for what good could such posably do?

Anyway, i feel that i should at least leave something of tonight - as i canot keep leaving nothing but curiosty in the air. So from my part i will leave you with the siple comclusion that i have finaly reached - The conclusion that their is no conclusion, as what never began can never be concluded - jsut the same as what is burried is never forgon, nor truley burried, for that is how it always been and no mater how much logic nor conviction one can throughs at such the orignal emotions canot be hidden for too long.

Any ways, now iv proberly jsut confused the feck out of ya all ill put something much more light hearted in - as some very kind freind provided you all with tonights entertaiment, something which my mind dosent seem to want to produce - so withoguh further ado ill go c/p it in......

And I know this has nothing to do with what im writing about but my good friend Tom thinks and I quote "PORNO ROCKS". He said this because many men find hours of plesure during the long lonely nights when they dont have a loved one eg girlfriend not mother etc cos thats sick. But the gay porn and is wrong because its got two guys placing things where they shouldnt makes me sick. BUT lesbian porn is good

Well, what elce can i add to that - tom obivously knows what he's tlking bout - prhaps you should start a buisness tom ? u alredy a gd photographer ;) lmao

anyways, me thinks me going to go to bed, iv cleared my mind once more - athough i know it wont last ("it jsut wont quit" - meatloaf) it will at least give me a few more days of sanity - yay :D ahh well, now its time for you fools to sho and leave me be, go on sho ya pessents......